Death of a Twin Flame and Continuing the Journey

This post is Part 1 of the “Death of a Twin Flame” series. Read Part 2: Twin Flame Rebirth & Reunion and Part 3: Twin Flame Death Story: A New Soul Connection of the story.

Twin Flame Death Story

I’ve been promised something unimaginable: the return of my late Twin Flame. Convinced that I was either crazy from grief or I was witnessing a miracle in the making, I began documenting the signs, messages, synchronicities I experienced after my Twin Flame died in January 2021.

This is the story of my Twin Flame’s death, our unsevered connection, and how someone who is no longer on this earth can spark a spiritual reawakening to lead us back to our intended life path. Twin Flames never truly die–they are simply reborn.

My Twin Flame Died and Promised to Return

I’ve often wondered why my Twin Flame died how he did, was taken when he was, how things were the way they were, and why we didn’t see them… From the cycles and patterns to the foreshadowing, signs, and messages. It’s also hard to ignore the way things have energetically taken off during all this, as if life was setting the stage for its next act.

Like many of our late loved ones, my Twin Flame died from a drug overdose after a relapse. Despite how he died, his life is considered “successful” because he completed the karmic cycles tied to that incarnation. He overcame the past life trauma and baggage that his spirit came into this world with. When it was communicated to me that my Twin Flame journey will continue, I was told that the person I’d encounter would have already have completed any karmic obligations and be ready to fully experience the journey. Through a lot of soul searching, energy sessions, meditations, past life exploration, and strengthening my faith in God, I’ve been able to confirm this message of a continuation. It is literally a miracle in the making.

At first, I was hesitant that it was just the grief talking. After 6 months of continuing to witness synchronicities and strange phenomena on a daily basis, I’m working to accept that in order for a “return” to occur, I need move on from who I physically knew him as in this life. I am 100% confident that there is the Divine “invisible hand” is at work. This is what I know in my heart to be true.

For those who have lost a Twin Flame, I am here to tell you that you can still embody your divine unconditional love and powerful abilities. The plan for them to depart from us “early” in this lifetime was pre-planned. We chose this. It was etched into the fiber of our being before we ever hit this world. Know that your Love will never leave you, and that they’re by your side 24/7 to help you actualize the purpose of how this lifetime is unfolding.

What do I mean by “Return”?

This does not mean that my Twin Flame himself – the person I knew him as in this lifetime – will return. What I mean is that the connection, the unconditional love, and the challenges and blessings that come with the Twin Flame journey will manifest again. If I’m lucky, a fragment of his soul may activate, as well, like a walk-in soul situation.

If our souls are anything like God, they are incomprehensively complicated. It is absolutely possible to exist in the 5D, in an incarnation on earth, die early within that timeline’s life span, and reincarnate again or have your soul “activate” from within a pre-existing vessel. The person he was to me previously in this lifetime will continue acting as a Helper to my spirit guides to assist me along my life path.

The Journey

Meeting my Twin Flame

He and I met years ago and began dating in 2008. The first relationship was very rocky. Hot and cold, extreme ups with extreme downs. The love and passion never faded. Back to the first time we met, our eyes locked and my whole world shifted. It’s hard to describe. It was like an energetic shift with visual and physical effects — very electric. Our divine clock had officially started at that moment, and ended when it shifted again 13 years later when I felt the effects of his physical departure. I will never forget that moment, same as I’ll never forget the first time we connected.

Some say that this energetic phenomena felt when meeting your Twin Flame is an effect of the 5D Union or “soul merge” occurring. For me, I experienced 3 distinct energy activations, including the most intense one that occurred during a meditation session about a month or so after his death. It was an unforgettable experience — over 3 hours of the most intense, deep, electric meditation I’ve ever had. Even compared to past life regression, accessing the Akashic Records, or even a psychedelic trip. I know that this was a mass upgrade to our spiritual union.

The First Separation Period

In 2012, I had recently graduated college and had to make a choice to either begin my adult life in the way I saw fit — a job, marriage, house, kids — or to remain in a relationship I knew wasn’t ready to meet these goals at the level I was aiming for. (I now have realized that I did myself a disservice by placing the material world higher than the emotional/energetic world as I’ve always naturally resonated with.)

Not counting the on-again off-again times, our Separation period lasted 7 years. In that time frame, I encountered some of the darkest years of my life, in terms of depression and anxiety. I was so far away from my own self, though I did overachieve the material goals I had set for myself in my early 20s. Because our bond was so strong, I had to completely cut him out of my life. Blocked on all channels and social media. Not even peering at his profile out of curiosity or anything. In a way, I had acted as if he was non-existent to me or dead, if you will. (Foreshadowing)

While I realized the cycles we had, how we jokingly referred to ourselves as a “power couple” back then because we were manifesting things together without even knowing it. We shared telepathic capabilities and were able to feel the other’s emotions even when 180 miles apart. I did not know that there was such thing as a Twin Flame and why our connection was so powerful until about a week after he died.

Twins have heightened “psychic” abilities (I like to call them “energetic” abilities to ease the stigma of the word “psychic” that some people unfortunately have). Even in the years apart, I’d always know if he was thinking of me or reminiscing in the intense emotions we felt together. It had even become annoying, at one point, interrupting my day-to-day life and the marriage I had entered into.

The Reunion

The timing of our reunion is also odd. He came back at the perfect time. I was going through a marital separation. My husband had left myself and our 1.5 year old child in an aging home, after putting us in a financial rut and not bothering to ensure we had proper support. This may have been the farthest away from myself I had ever been. My Twin came back into my life acting as an anchor. He was ready this time. The joke was on me, though because this time, I was not ready.

He stepped up and redeemed himself over and over again. He lived up to his promises. He was always there and put me first. He wanted it. I got to get to know him all over again — the real him with the extremely kind heart, wickedly talented mind, and an eagerness for the real things in life. Our unconditional love never faded. In fact, it had only grown stronger even after 7 years of complete separation.

The Runner & The Chaser Reversed

In the first part of our relationship before the separation period, I was the one always chasing him, desperately trying to get him to heal his pain and mature so we could be together. This time, he was the one holding me up. In a way, he sacrificed himself so that I can continue the critical mission of bringing universal love into the world. That is the ultimate show of love.

A few months into the reunion, old patterns on my end began to rear its head. I didn’t realize that I was his mirror, and he was mine. I got nervous about his intentions, because it hadn’t yet been long enough to rebuild the trust he had damaged in the past. I remembered that 3 months into our first relationship is when the problems started, and probably wrongfully manifested that into fruition this time around. After a while, I realized that no matter how hard I tried, no matter what possible combination of events in life that could happen or which timeline we could potentially project into, it was no use. I said to him, “We were not meant for this life.“

I then began getting intuitive thoughts that, like his biological father, he wouldn’t live past his 50s. My gut said 40s, which was only 8 years away. I didn’t realize it at the time, but I was being selfish: I wanted forever. I did want it. But I knew it would take a long time to course correct and finally get to the “surrender” stage. Little did I know that it’s foolish to underestimate the power and sheer magnitude of the Twin Flame journey. That connection can literally shatter the limits of the impossible.

Manifesting a New Direction

Despite how much I seemed to resist fully investing in the relationship, he looked me dead in the eyes on multiple occasions and said, “I’m going to marry you.” He wasn’t kidding. He was 100% determined and knew it in his gut that he would one day marry me. I shrugged it off as him just being unrealistic, as I wasn’t in a position to even fathom another marriage-level commitment yet. However, despite my deep sense of knowing that a marriage with him was never possible in this lifetime, his promise always stuck with me. I knew that these words would play a significant role when it came time to determine if my future connection with my “new” Twin Flame was legitimate or not.

Spoiler: A new person carrying Twin Flame energy entered my life. My jaw almost dropped when he looked me in the eye and with pure conviction said, “I’m going to marry you.” We hadn’t been talking about marriage or had any other reason for that statement to be made. My late Twin Flame came shining through in that moment. Read about it in Part III of the story: Twin Flame Rebirthed: A New Soul Connection

Now that you have a glimpse of the backstory, I often think back over those 13 years and introspect on myself, my relationship with my Twin, and even what he was experiencing. He wrote me letters constantly, even when sitting in the same room as me. I’ve kept the letters and studied them to see exactly what changed, where I could grow, or anything else I need to realize. It’s clear that he completed whatever he was supposed to do in this life, including his role in helping me find myself again.

Through a ton of inner work, energy healing, and growth, I have been able to shift my own life path. I am working through my own miracle — something that’s been promised by God should I stay the course with pure intentions and fully embrace what I’m being called to do for the greater good.

Learning to Trust my Late Twin Flame in Spirit

For anyone going through a spiritual awakening, there’s a point where you receive so many signs, messages, synchronicities and your psychic abilities are being activated to where you begin to question if what you’re receiving is in your head or if it’s authentic. It can be overwhelming and powerful, as the connection comes on strong to get your attention, as well as get you familiar with recognizing this side of life.

When my Twin Flame was alive, I did not know what the term, “twin flame” was but both of us knew there was something different about our connection. When we initially met many years ago, there was a noticeable energetic activation. The same thing occurred at the moment of his death and I physically felt the energy shift, though I was miles away.

Years ago, I went through a period of time where my motto towards my Twin Flame was, “never again.” A song described it perfectly when the lyrics sang, “I had to fake your death to live again.” I was so done with him, I completely cut him out of my life and had no plans to ever speak to him again. So, to be able to recognize his energy as now being critical in guiding me along my life path, I had to put in extra effort to heal past traumas, transmute the pain of past experiences (I highly recommend The Violet Flame for this), and bring myself into a position to acknowledge him at the purest level – no ego, residual pain or hang ups clouding my view of him. Getting to know my Spirit Guides was essential in this process, allowing me to see that this is a team effort among my soul family to guide and nurture me along my path.

Confirmation from the Universe

My Twin Flame’s energy is naturally strong. His energetic fingerprint (i.e. the way that his energy differs from say, my guide’s or other person’s energy) is very distinct and I could recognize it anywhere. This came in handy once I began noticing all sorts of ways he was trying to come through after he died.

There are so many different means, methods, and ways that my late Twin Flame not only made his presence known, but he provided me with assurance to know it was him on top of my own intuition and what I knew in my heart to be real.

1. Misdated Letters

One of the first things I noticed that was peculiar was that he had written me not one, but four letters that were misdated as February 2021, instead of February 2020 when they were written.

This is significant because he has an early February birthday. As someone with a February birthday, myself, we pay extra attention to the date following the new year so that, especially by February, we no longer make the mistake of writing the wrong year. Additionally, we often joked about how OCD I was about dating the letters he wrote me. He had never made a mistake of writing the wrong year on his to me letters before.

He died in January of 2021, so he never made it to February 2021. To realize that four letters were misdated with the wrong year, which would’ve meant they were written after he had died, that got my attention.

2. Messages from Others

My Twin Flame’s energy was so strong, he got the attention of people that included mutual friends, as well as people who didn’t even know him in this lifetime.

Friends of ours who are otherwise not “spiritually inclined” began to message me on social media, saying they felt his presence. What’s interesting is that when they said this, it was usually following a period where I strongly felt his energy but then felt it dissipate, as if he was there by my side and then left to be with someone else. This provided an extra level of verification for me to vet if what I was experiencing was all in my head, or if it was something more.

My sister claimed to see a dream of his body being cremated, even. This was a few days before he actually was, and she had no way to know that his family was planning to cremate him at that time.

What got my full attention, however, was an evening twenty days after his death. On the night of February 10, 2021 (Note the 1’s and 2’s in this date), I had just gotten off the phone with a close friend after having an emotional conversation about everything. I went outside on my porch to sit and view the night sky. I noticed that each star in the sky that was visible that night had a corresponding match of similar size near it, as if they were part of a pair with their counterpart. My cat began to act odd, meowing and walking around as if excited about something, though nothing out of the ordinary was going on. A few moments later, I received a message from an old friend of mine, who was also experiencing a spiritual re-awakening. The messages she was receiving were so strong that she delivered the information via Facebook Voice Message, as to capture every detail she was getting. She brought up things that were dead-on as to who my Twin Flame was (no pun intended) and included things that wouldn’t make sense to me for another year or so later. After about 10 minutes or so, she noted that the messages she was receiving had stopped. Right at that instant, I felt my Twin Flame’s energy return.

Her message resonated so deeply with me, it prompted me to take everything I was witnessing seriously – to not write anything off as mere coincidence. Once I began doing that, the momentum really began to pick up!

3. Transcendental Meditation

That same night, my friend sent me links to meditation music for astral projection. I had never before really meditated, but partially frustrated by the crazy things I was experiencing, but also eager to explore them, I jokingly raised my hands up in the air and said, “You’ve got something to tell me? OK, fine. Let’s go. Tell me!” And I proceeded to lay down in a quiet room to meditate for the first time.

The meditation I then had was so intense, from the physical sensations, my energy centers (Chakras) being activated, and the spiritual depth of what I experienced, I began meditating almost every day after that. I listened to free Twin Flame meditations, including Reiki energy sessions and heart healings on YouTube. It allowed me to process my grief, as well as go deeper into my Twin Flame connection.

To this day, I see meditation is a valuable tool in connecting us to the levels beyond our physical body. It’s not something we can easily “prove” in this point in time, but if you research how many others are experiencing the same thing, it becomes more credible.

4. Psychic Readings, Past Life Regression & Spirit Guides

I started feeling like this wasn’t our first rodeo together – that we had experienced the death of one another before. To explore this, I went to a local psychic/medium. It’s important to note that the only date available for a reading was February 14, 2021. Valentine’s Day. This is also the date from the first misdated letter I found, mentioned earlier in this article.

I told the psychic reader nothing about my Twin Flame, or that I believed he was my Twin Flame at all. The only piece of identifying information I provided was that he had recently died. She was able to pinpoint very specific things about him that, even if she did prior research on me, she wouldn’t have been able to know. She also shared that we were in previous lives together, one where we were both young kids. I had fallen ill and was going to die without medication, which my family couldn’t afford. This devastated him, as he wanted to find a way to help me. I died around age 11, leaving him behind to live out his life.

The psychic reader shared the following with me about Twin Flames:

“Often, romantic relationships are the ones we learn from the most – especially when it comes to twin flames. Twin flames, because you are 2 parts of the same soul, there is that magnetism. Think of it like magnets – if there is one component missing from what makes a magnet, then it won’t stick to the other. If there is unresolved energy on either side, it makes it hard to stick.

Now that your twin is on the other side, he is able to act as a guide. Since he is technically part of your soul, in a weird way his voice IS your own consciousness. Keep listening, because he is always going to want the best for your journey no matter what.“

A month or two later, I found a professional who did past life regressions for Twin Flames. In that session, I uncovered another past life we shared, where we were romantic partners in a tribal community. I was unable to bear a child, but tribe customs allowed him to take a concubine for procreation. Even today, I can still feel and recognize that heartbreak. It was interesting to find out that some of the issues that he and I had in this life were deep-seeded and originated from other scenarios.

Additionally, an established medium revealed that my main guide is closest to me from a lifetime in 34 A.D. ancient Rome. He was our paternal father figure for both me and my Twin Flame, making us siblings in that life. I’m still uncovering things about that incarnation, but you can see how we are intertwined with these soul connections and how they never really leave us. What we are experiencing now is just one part of a long, beautiful journey.

5. Date and Time Synchronicity

My Twin Flame died on the morning of January 21, 2021. In numerology, 1/21/2021 reduces to 9, the number of completion. A cycle has been completed for a new one to begin.

Around 10:22 a.m. the day of his death, I was overcome with the strangest feeling. It was so strong that it stopped me in my tracks as I was walking along a nature trail. Come to find out, the sensation I felt was the result of his energy shifting from the physical plane to the spiritual one.

A year prior to his death, on 1/1/20 at 10:22 a.m., he had an NDE. I called 911 and he was resuscitated. 1/1/20 reduces to the number 5, which is associated with trials and challenges.

It’s interesting to note the repeating pattern of the number 1 and number 2 in the dates and times.

6. Birthdays

Synchronicities can also be found in our zodiac sun signs and birthdates. My late Twin Flame was an Aquarius ♒︎ and I am a Pisces ♓︎. Aquarius is the water-bearer, an air sign that brings water (life or emotion) to the world. Pisces, a water sign, is associated with a compilation of all other eleven zodiac signs with a deep interconnection to the metaphysical, spiritual side of life. Aquarius represents bearing the water and Pisces is that water.

Other interesting things that overlap include:

• We were both born in February, 1 year and 20 days apart. (Yep… More ones and twos!)
• His birthday of 2/6 and my birthday of 2/26 both contain 2 and 6.
• His full birthdate reduces to 6, the number of Love (6 is The Lovers card in Tarot, traditionally called The Choice card).
• My birthday equals 10, a number that encompasses all the events, experiences, and lessons of a cycle. 1 is the number of new beginnings and 0 is the infinite nature of eternity.

This translates into a message of being divinely connected throughout the entirety of our souls’ existence, with a core theme of universal love. A love that transcends space and time.

7. Songs and Signs in Nature

A song came on the other day: “Look at the sky, I’m still here. I’ll be alive next year.” I couldn’t help but notice that next year is 2022 (reduces to 6, again!). The same day that song came on, I witnessed a heart cloud in the sky, multiple numerical synchronicities such as 12:21 and 4:44), and a “Heaven & Earth Landscaping” truck (that I saw a couple days later, reinforcing that what I had seen that day was not a mere coincidence), which I saw while listening to a song on the radio talking about “Heaven on earth”.

8. Angel Number 444

The number 444 began appearing shortly after the death. It has been so significant in my journey that my social media handle is @etherealsoul444. This number is a sign that your angels, guides, and loved ones are by your side as you work hard to build stability and a strong foundation for the future.

“Angel number 444 is a sign of protection and encouragement along the right path. It includes the number 4, the number of the Self, hard work, responsibility and trust, amplifying it by repeating it three times. 444 recognizes the progress made and the effort it took to get there. It reminds you to continue putting in the strength and energy to achieve your purpose. This number symbolizes the end of one phase of life and the beginning of another, and assures you that you are never alone. You are being guided and embraced with the mystical positive vibrations being sent to you.”

After more than 14 months of seeing 444 at least twice a day, I now realize that this cycle was set before I even knew. The events that occurred (abrupt martial separation, sale of the house, reentry of a lost love, their death, and my divorce) were part of the grand design of my life’s path. Life broke itself down, I endured a period of discomfort, and it is building itself back up for the second act. Better than the first.

I see this number everywhere and know that my late Love is safe, healed, and keeping his promise he made me during his visit to the earthly plane. I miss him dearly, but am so excited for the things he continues to show me and the amazing ways that my journey with him has helped me to grow.

9. Lens Flares

Light is a common way I receive confirmation from my guides, Twin Flame, and the universe in general. The lens flares I was capturing in photos became exponentially more vibrant and intricate. I can’t always get the light to display these beautiful lens flares. It’s only when I feel an intuitive nudge to get out my camera and I can almost hear the words “point and shoot” in my minds eye, or the sun glimmers in a way that it almost seems purposeful in getting my attention that I’m able to produce these photos.

Light and lens flares were part of a transcendental experience I had one day that was so healing. The energy in that moment was so powerful, the light was the means for not only affirming what I was experiencing, but facilitating it. I wrote about it in this article: Lens Flare Lightcodes and Energy Healing.

10. Other Ways Embedded in Everyday Life

I’ve been sent butterflies, dragonflies, birds, nostalgic songs that come on at just the right times, intuitive messages, dreams where I can tell the difference between what is my subconscious projection of him versus his actual energy, established a connection with my spirit guide, somehow mastered transcendental meditation, renewed my faith, and so much more… The patterns, coincidences, and synchronicities are undeniable.

Rebirth

A few days before he died, he gave me two necklaces:

1. A mother/daughter necklace, as he very much loved both myself and my daughter.
2. A charm necklace with a lotus on it and “REBIRTH” printed on the packaging. This perplexed me: Why did he choose that one and not one of the numerous other options they had like “LOVE”? What exactly did he mean by “REBIRTH”?

I’m preparing for this by allowing myself to fully experience the stages of grief, with an intention to let go of the pieces of my heart his physical self still holds. I need to completely heal and grow from who he once was to make room for what will be. A literal rebirth.

Because I am connected to my Twin Flame at the soul level and he is now existing metaphysically, our connection was transformed to where all things metaphysical were heightened. His role in my life has transformed from a romantic lover to a lifelong companion. He now serves as a helper to my spirit guides, assisting them in guiding me through my life.

Is it Possible to Reunite?

There are many stories of souls being reincarnated in existing people. For instance, one person was reincarnated into a child at the age of 3 years old, rather than at birth. If this is possible, then it’s possible that my Twin Flame’s soul can come back to earth. I may not even realize that it’s “him”, but we will have the symptoms of a divine bond—that will be unmistakable.

Looking back, the connections and progression of events is so clear. Life was setting itself up for the second act. Once I recognized this, I began a daily effort towards my spiritual development and understanding of the 5D, while also grieving.

All of the events leading up to his death, from our initial meeting to separation and everything in between, had to happen. His death was likely etched into our soul contracts, agreed upon before our spirits ever entered our current bodies. This gives me comfort and hope, as I find faith in our unconditional love and extraordinary connection, knowing that our story is ultimately to support me in my intended life path.

Twin Flames are divine in nature, so it’s very possible to continue my Twin Flame journey in this life. He always loved to challenge the impossible. I know he’s up for the task! I’ve chosen to place my full trust in the him, our love, my guides, myself, the universe and God.

Learnings from the Experience

There are a few key things I’ve learned from this experience. In order to work with your Twin Flame after they’ve died, it’s important to do the following:

• Give yourself permission to trust and believe what your Heart is telling you.
• Set the intention to let go of what no longer serves you and embrace the path that holds your greatest good.
• Work on yourself to lift your vibration. Silence the ego and move away from a fear driven life. You’d be surprised how many thoughts and decisions we make that are derived from fear!
• Embrace your energetic abilities: Intuition, empathy, telepathy, mediumship, transcendental meditation, dreams, and more.
• Allow yourself to openly feel whatever emotion comes up and explore it. Low level emotions, memories, and past patterns come to surface so they can be healed.
• Document the messages you receive, regardless of how trivial they seem or how they are communicated to you. If a meaningful song comes on the radio and it grabs your attention, don’t dismiss it—write it down! You’ll start to see patterns and be able to piece together the ways life is guiding you.

There is no room for fear or doubt. Hate is not the opposite of Love; Fear is. Entertaining even a passing thought of doubt or fear that what I’m receiving is incorrect can be detrimental. Doubt plants a seed that affects the beliefs and perceptions we use to develop our thoughts. Fear is emitted at an extremely low frequency, which is the exact opposite of the goal: High-vibrational Love.

It may take a while for all the pieces of your situation to come together. In the meantime of the universe doing its part to bring it into reality, do your part by focusing on your spiritual development and personal growth (inner-child healing, shadow work, etc.).

Through inner self healing, spiritual development, and a strong foundation of faith, it is possible to connect with your late Twin Flame.

This experience has shown how stunningly limitless life is when we are in touch with our spiritual selves and open to what the universe has to offer us.

[Since publishing this article, it has reached many people who have lost their counterpart, but have a deep sense of knowing that their journey with that soul was not over. If you have a story to share, please comment or reach out. I’d love to connect!]